I am three days away from reaching the 12 week mark in pregnancy. I am really excited to almost be there and also a little apprehensive of what the next 6 months will hold. And beyond that - the next lifetime of Baby Medrano!
Who knew that motherhood worries begin when the baby is barely a twinkle in your eye. I found out I was pregnant when I was a mere 5 weeks. Now at 12 weeks the reality is sinking in. Could it be the constant morning sickness? The fatigue? The baby crib my inlaws already purchased for us? I'm already worrying about what kind of world my baby will be born into. What neighborhood has the best schools? How exactly will my back to work schedule look like post-baby? What kind of Mom will I be? Will my baby look like me?
On another interesting front I mailed in my official "birth family search request" to WACAP. I have little to no expectations of finding anything. But it was a big step to start the search and I feel good that I mailed it in.
It's an odd thing to explain to non-adoptees... but there is something really powerful to know I am having a baby and for the first time in my adult life... will be with another person who shares my blood. I find comfort in that.
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
New Beginning
Well world, today marks a momentum moment in the life of Marika. I am 10 weeks pregnant! New life begins here. As you may know, Jacob and I have been wanting this for awhile, but it happened so unexpectedly... which is usually what happens, right?
So here we are today, and I'm slowly making in through my first trimester. Cautious, excited and scared. On top of everything else I have recently learned I am a diabetic so it has added a wrinkle into this whole pregnancy thing.
Everything they say about pregnancy (and more) is true. I was nauseous for about 3 weeks straight and pretty much dead to the world. I have gas, bloating, and heartburn! I am also perpetually tired. And that thing called Pregnancy brain? It's true! One moment I'm happy, the next I'm sad. And please don't ask me to try and remember our conversation, even if it was 2 minutes ago. And because of the diabetes I can't really do the whole ice cream and pickles routine (sugar and salt).
So two life changes - learning I am a diabetic which will be lifelong. I need to keep my sugars in check. And while I am scared about what it all means, I am determined to be the best manager of my health. I want to live a long, healthy and as drug free possible lifestyle as possible.
On a sidenote, I am feeling well taken care of by my high risk pre-natal team. And my blood sugar numbers are good.
Pregnant! At 32. Who knew. I am utterly amazed, and so happy!!! I will post ultrasound pics one of these days...
So here we are today, and I'm slowly making in through my first trimester. Cautious, excited and scared. On top of everything else I have recently learned I am a diabetic so it has added a wrinkle into this whole pregnancy thing.
Everything they say about pregnancy (and more) is true. I was nauseous for about 3 weeks straight and pretty much dead to the world. I have gas, bloating, and heartburn! I am also perpetually tired. And that thing called Pregnancy brain? It's true! One moment I'm happy, the next I'm sad. And please don't ask me to try and remember our conversation, even if it was 2 minutes ago. And because of the diabetes I can't really do the whole ice cream and pickles routine (sugar and salt).
So two life changes - learning I am a diabetic which will be lifelong. I need to keep my sugars in check. And while I am scared about what it all means, I am determined to be the best manager of my health. I want to live a long, healthy and as drug free possible lifestyle as possible.
On a sidenote, I am feeling well taken care of by my high risk pre-natal team. And my blood sugar numbers are good.
Pregnant! At 32. Who knew. I am utterly amazed, and so happy!!! I will post ultrasound pics one of these days...
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