sad, sick, upset, hopeful

Sad.  I have been very sad about the passing of Daisy Girl.  When I wake up in the morning I still look in her corner of the room and expect to see her curled into a ball and purposely ignoring me.  When I come home from work I expect her twirl around and greet me, but alas only hubby leans over to give me a kiss.  Don't get me wrong, I love my husband.  But I really miss my dog and Jake can't spin in circles like Daisy girl could.  It's been two weeks now since she passed away.

Sick.  So then I get a cold.  A bad cold.  A cold that was so bad it might have been the flu.  I was sick an entire week, missed 4 days of work.  I am finally getting better.  Better living with medication and cough drops :)

Upset.  Clearly the cold had me down and feeling upset.  Then to top it off, I find that at work my position should have been re-classified higher as my peers, but was somehow missed.  The positive outcome is that I get my classification increased and I get backpay from August 2010 when my position should have been changed.  This may be wishful thinking.

Hopeful.  Los Angeles County Human Resources comes knocking again.  Management Assistant.  Hhhhm.  More details to follow post interview on December 15th. 

It's inching towards Christmas which always makes me happy.  I'm a sucker for this time of year.  I know that Jake felt particularly bad for me, because he even put up Christmas lights in the apartment.  I love him.

Daisy Lou Medrano

My beautiful pit bull died this morning at 6:45am.  Daisy girl was a Valentines Day gift from Jacob on February 1, 2004.  She would have turned 6 tomorrow on Thanksgiving.  Now she is in doggy heaven. 

It's really too hard & too painful to write much right now.  I can only say that I will miss her and that I loved her.  I have cried a lot these past few weeks about her illness and now that she's gone I feel a sense of relief that her suffering is over.  But as we know it still makes things hard.

You know that you will outlive your pet... but you grow attached to them and they become friends and companions and when they go... it really hits you hard.

Daisy girl was the best dog I ever had.  She is the best pet I ever had.  She was also - I can brag - the most beautiful dog.  She was stubborn, standoffish and moody... but she was my girlie.  She was my precious hoo-belle and she will be missed in a million ways.  It's going to be hard to go home tonight and not have my girlie meet me at the door.  Great pets come along only once or twice in a lifetime.  I feel blessed to have had her.  She was precious, special and such a lady.

Rest in peace Daisy

My Fanbase Will Destroy You!

Jake and I had an awesome weekend in Portland!  I can't get enough of it :)
Saturday we chilled in the Pearl District, ate great food, people watched, strolled around Powell's bookstore, bought some gear at Urban Outfitters and the Levi's store...
Then at night we headed out to Slabtown and saw... Sleep, Free Moral Agents and 2Mex.  My Fanbase Will Destroy You!!!  This was one of the best shows I have seen in awhile - good underground hip hop and a nice vibe.  We weren't the only hardcore 2Mex fans in the room :)

I'm really digging Sleep and Free Moral Agents... I'll be checking out their CD's. 
We got back to the hotel at about 2:30am, but because of Daylights Savings it was only 1:30am!
Sunday we slept in, grabbed some Jack in the Box and headed to the Woodburn Mall.  Another Levi's trip, Vans store, Zumiez then home to Corvallis.

Free Moral Agents - lead singer... she's a cross between Portishead & Bjork, I think I love her

She's singing with 2Mex

Now it's back to Monday.  But I only have a three day week so I can't complain.  In two weeks in the Restoration Pow Wow adventure... stay tuned :)

thoughts of 30

I turned 30 in June and I am still relishing it.  Growing up 30 sounds old and grown up.  But when I acutlaly hit 30 it felt fortuitous.  I think for me it's because I'm in a good place.  I am in love, I have have a happy home life, I have a happy work life, and I am blessed with good health.  Life is never perfect, but I am feeling like a really luck lady right now.  I have a bunch of friends who also turned or are turning 30 this year and I think we all agree...
1) you love yourself more at 30 than you did at 20
2) you have more faith and confidance in yourself
3) you are usually more settled in life - less drama

I also checked... no white hairs yet! 

long time since I posted!

Apparently my blogging skills are right up there with my pen pal skills - kinda lame.  Well I do have some updates...
First - Daisy girl may be preggers and I am on puppy watch until Mid December.  Anyone looking for gorgeous pit pull puppies??  They will be for about $300-$350.  Photos will follow... of course!!
Second - Thinking of having my own puppies...
Third - We aren't moving to California after all... we are now house/home/land searching in Oregon



Bam Bam (Daisy's baby daddy)



Marika with her tall drink of water

Daisy girl (is she or isn't she?)

good looking bike...

That's all folks... Happy Friday :)

lotto

Last night I had the same recurring dream I have had for 12 years (my working adult life) about winning the lottery.  It usually goes like this...

I win the lottery.  I am estactic, you can see this right?  I imagine and plan what I'm going to do with the money - lavish vacations (Hawaii, Egypt, Mexico, Korea, Mars), cars (Hummer - yeah I said it, Maserati, Camaro), homes (summer home, winter home, vacation home...), shopping (Paris, Rodeo, New York...here I come!!), donations (spend a little, give a little)... then I wake up.  And realize that in real life I haven't hit it big (yet).

I have been religiously buying lotto tickets.  Don't worry I don't go overboard, I limit myself to one lottery ticket a week.  My husband thinks it's silly, but occassionally I will win.  Last week I won $10!!  This will pay for lotto tickets for 10 weeks!!  In the back of my mine I think, if I keep buying, one day I will win.  It's a vicious cycle.  But for this small fantasy I am willing to splurge $1 a week.

Happy Friday!

Now that I live in Oregon every day is a casual day.  My personal rebellion?  Dress up Fridays: skirts, heels, a little skin.  Also now that B hooked me up with tons of Urban Decay - I'm obligated to paint my pretty mug every morning.  Don't worry - I'm not complaining :)  I'm just starting to remember that I like to dress up.

Rant of the day?  City of Beaverton residents are up in arms over the city spending 5K of city funds for a Mexican Independence Day celebration over the weekend.  The argument they make is that the City does not do anything for the United States Independence Day, but now they are spending tax dollars on, of all things, a Mexican Holiday!  I wonder, would this even be an issue if it was a St. Patrick's Day celebration?  Just wondering.  Psst... should I even mention that we live just North of occupied Mexico?

Well at least this is a 3 day weekend :)  Hubby and I plan to go to Machete.  And don't expect any more postings until next week... "Machete dont text"

first entry

Starting a blog out sounds so important.  Who knew it would practically set itself up?  I'm not sure if I started this for narcissitic reasons or if I have anything relevant to share with folks.  I guess we will find out...
Stay tuned ;-)